Blog – Out of the Closet

Say I am thinking of getting an iphone and someone at church has one. At fellowship after the service, I might ask the person about their iphone. We might look at it, see what it does, how it works, etc. If I was thinking about buying a Nissan Versa and someone at church had a Versa, we might go out to the parking lot after church and look at the car. Say I was thinking about taking a vacation to Hawaii and someone I know at church had been there. We might sit over coffee after the service looking at the person’s photo album of the trip to Hawaii. These are normal, natural things that we would feel entirely comfortable doing out in the open.

Several weeks ago, after a church service, three men went into a closet to look at a gun because one of them was thinking of buying himself a gun for his 21st birthday. In the course of things, the gun went off, penetrated the closet wall, and entered the head of the pastor’s daughter, the fiance of one of the men in the closet. Tragically, Hannah Grace Kelley died. Yes, this incident is heartbreakingly sad. We feel grief and compassion for all those involved: The men in the closet, Hannah’s family and friends, the church. It is a horrific story.

But let’s go back to the closet. Why were the men in the closet with the gun? As I cited earlier, people sharing things with each other at church is nothing to hide. Unless it is something that is morally wrong or against Christian teaching. The teachings of Jesus in the New Testament are decidedly anti violent: Not only non violent, but markedly anti violent. Jesus teaches love of enemies. The tradition remembers him telling his followers to pray for those who persecute them. In the story of the garden of Gethsemane, the crowd comes to arrest Jesus with swords and clubs. One of Jesus’ followers draws a sword and Jesus responds, “Put your sword back into its place; for all who take the sword will perish by the sword.” [Matthew 26:52] Jesus never lived by the sword. He never used violence and he taught his followers to confront evil with transforming love and kindness, not violence of any kind. There are no teachings of Jesus in the New Testament that promote the use of violence or even defend the use of force, violence, or weaponry.

Our church has a policy that guns are not allowed on the church property and that policy is visibly posted on the church building. No one can come to church or to an AA meeting or do repair work on the church or in any other circumstance have a gun on the church property, with the exception of law enforcement officials. Why do we have this policy? Because this is an important core tenet of the Christian faith and we are a Christian church. No violence. No weapons.

Given the context in which we live, we accept that law enforcement officials bear arms, but we do not pretend that the use of guns is consistent with the teachings of Jesus or the Christian faith. The use of a gun may be justified in an agricultural setting, say to put an injured animal out of its misery. And use of guns may be morally justified for hunting purposes. But to use a gun for self defense or protection against another person is in direct conflict with the teachings of Jesus. Jesus had his opponents, his enemies, and he knew it. He never suggested or sanctioned the use of violence against them, even in self defense.

It is well past time for the Christian church to promote Jesus’ teachings of anti violence. Again and again he counseled that the use of violence was not consistent with the will of God. I think that is why the three men at the church were in the closet. In their hearts they knew that what they were doing was not consistent with the gospel of Jesus Christ. Deep down, they knew it was wrong. That’s why they were behind closed doors, hidden, and not out in the open. If the church were boldly and courageously out of the closet about Jesus‘ teachings against violence, Hannah might still be alive today.

Lenten Reflection 2.27.12

Love of enemies is a core teaching of Christianity. It is one of the most well known of Jesus’ teachings: “Love your enemies.” [Matthew 5: 44] But who are are enemies? Perhaps you’ve seen the current bumper sticker: “When Jesus said, ‘Love your enemies’ he probably didn’t mean bomb them.” We tend to think of our enemies as those who are enemies of our nation. We think of enemies as those not from our group or tribe or nation who present a threat to us or who we believe hate us. Who do you think of as an enemy?

We can also look at enemies as people who are a personal threat to us. Someone we don’t get along with. Someone who seems out to get us at work or at school. Maybe it is a rival for a love interest. Maybe we think of an enemy as someone who may perpetrate a crime against us. We’re afraid of being held up or attacked or robbed. So, we may think of an enemy in terms of a personal external threat. Can you think of someone that you might consider a personal enemy?

In Psalm 25, the writer prays, “Do not let my enemies exult over me.” We can think of enemies in the ways we mentioned above. But we can also think of enemies as those internal character traits and behaviors that work against our best interests. We can reflect on our enemies within and trying not to let those enemies get the best of us. Here we may think of things like selfishness, or prejudice, or addiction. We may consider how we let out harsh words that hurt others. We may think of opportunities, abilities, and talents laying dormant and not being put to full use. Maybe an enemy would be laziness, or lack of initiative, or apathy. Can you think of any enemies within you?

Lent is a season to free ourselves from the grip of our enemies, however we may perceive them. It is a time to limit if not eliminate the power that we let our perceived enemies have over us. It is a time to think about how to disempower our enemies with the power of love. It is a time to reflect and consider how we can follow the way of Jesus loving ourselves, others, and, yes, our enemies.

Prayer
Jesus taught us to love our enemies. That can be very difficult. Whether the enemies are outside of us or within us. But we know that the power of love is stronger than the power of hatred and violence. May we have the strength and trust to embrace the freedom of love so that we are not controlled by our enemies or by fear. Amen.

Lenten Reflection 2.26.12

When we put money in the bank, or in a credit union, we are placing our trust in that institution. We do this trusting that our money will be properly handled. When we try a new recipe, we are putting our trust in the source of the recipe. We are trusting that whoever shared this recipe has tried it and knows that it works and that the result will be favorable. When we buy a car, we are putting our trust in the manufacturer and the seller that the car will run as expected. When we wait for the city bus to take us somewhere, we are putting our trust in the bus system to have the buses running. Each and every day, in many ways, we are putting our trust in people and systems and institutions. We trust every day.

In Psalm 25, the writer declares, “O my God, in you I trust.” Lent is a time to consider what it means to put our trust in God. Putting our trust in God might mean not putting our trust in some other things. It might change how we look at our circumstances. It should affect our entire outlook on life. Does it?

Jesus is one we can look to for putting his complete and total trust in God. Consider what that meant for him.

“O my God, in you I trust.” It is a simple plea, yet potentially life changing. Think about your life. Think about today. How did you put your trust in God today? How does putting your trust in God shape your world view? Your self concept? Your values? Your behavior? Putting our trust in God frees us from putting trust in things which are not steadfast, which do not prove true, which fail us. Even church and political involvements can let us down. Can you think of a time that your trust was betrayed and that your trust was broken? Trusting in God gives us strength to deal with those disappointments. Is there anything worthy of our trust save God?

Prayer
There are so many ways that we dispense our trust. May we learn to trust God first, and then to know that everything else will fall into it’s proper place. Placing our trust in God frees us from ultimate loyalty to things that disappoint. Trust in God never disappoints. O God, in you I trust. Amen.

Lenten Reflection 2.25.12

When is the last time you sinned? Today? Yesterday? In the last 5 minutes? While the question is simple, the answer might not be so easy. We don’t want to sin, do the wrong thing, make a bad choice, hurt someone in some way, but we do. And the consequences of our actions may not only adversely effect others but ourselves as well. Yet it can be hard to put a finger on sin, unless we have stolen something or cheated on a test or committed adultery or some other obviously culpable offense.

Yes, we know that we sin, yet, who among us would think of hurting God? Sinning against God? Violating God? While we may have very different images of God, still that is almost unthinkable. We don’t want to work against God, however we may conceive of God.

In Psalm 51, there is a phrase, “Against you, you alone, have I sinned. . .” The Psalmist is addressing God. The implication is that all sin is against God. While at first that may sound drastic, with deeper thought, maybe we can see the insight.

Our tradition tells us that all human beings are created in the image of God. We bear God within us. So, a wrong to another person, is a wrong to the divine image within that person. A sin against God. A wrong to ourselves, as bearers of the divine imprint, is, again, a sin against God. This hearkens back to Jesus’ teaching, that whatever you have done to the least of these, you have done unto me. While the specific context refers to good deeds, such as visiting the sick and feeding the hungry, we can infer the reverse. That whatever harm we do to another, directly or indirectly, we do to Jesus. So it is not as farfetched as it first sounds that all sin is against God.

Our tradition also teaches that God is responsible for Creation. The earth, the universe, the cosmos, all that is, is the self-expression of God. So to abuse or misuse or harm any part of Creation can be seen as a sin against God. In addition, to harm the earth is to diminish the ability of the earth to provide for all of our neighbors. It is to deprive others of clean water, safe air, arable land to grow food, etc. So violating the earth can be seen as a way that we ultimately harm ourselves and our neighbors. Sinning against God, again.

This brings us back to the central teaching of Judaism and Christianity. Love of God and love of neighbor. And the golden rule, a teaching in every major world religion: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Anything less is a sin against God.

So this idea that all sin is against God, is not as drastic and farfetched as it first sounds. Instead of rejecting this idea as hyperbole or ancient poeticism, I hope it will speak to us in fresh ways about our connections to all of life, to one another, and to the sacred.

Prayer
We do not want to sin. We do not want to cause harm. We do not want to defy God. May we choose to use the freedom of our faith to see the implications of all of our behaviors, our choices, our lives. This unflinching honesty will lead us to seek the reconciliation we need from God and one another, so that we can truly be free. Amen.

Lenten Reflection 2.24.12

No one is perfect. We all know that to be human is to be imperfect. It is simply part of our DNA. When you do a multiplication problem on a calculator, you are going to get the right answer. When you check the spelling of a word on a word processing program on a computer, you are going to get the correct spelling. When you toss a jar of coins into the coin counter at the grocery store, the count will be right. Machines are going to be accurate. There will be no computational error.

While we humans can design and create these machines that are virtually error-free, when properly functioning, we ourselves cannot be error-free. We make mistakes: In mathematical computation, or typographical errors, or dialing a wrong number, or misreading instructions. We make mistakes which is one of the unique characteristics that makes us human beings.

Our mistakes, our errors, our wrongs, are not only of a technical nature. We also commit errors of judgment. We choose behavior inconsistent with our stated values. We lash out in anger, We neglect an act of compassion. We let ourselves be governed by false ideals. We take the easy way out instead of doing what we know is right. We bury hopes and dreams. We allow ourselves to be ruled by selfishness. We tell a “white” lie. We cheat in some way when we know we won’t be caught. We live at the expense of others. We choose expediency over nonviolence. We justify injustice.

Church is a place, a context, safe space, if you will, to acknowledge our failings, our shortcomings, our sins. It is a place to admit, with the psalmist, “I know my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me.” [Psalm 51:3, New Revised Standard Version]

I do not believe that the church should judge people in a condemnatory way. I do not think the church should rail at people to make them feel dirty, bad, and evil. Jesus never did that. I do not support the use of the concept of sin with the threat of eternal damnation in hell as a way of controlling people and eliciting “good” behavior.

We need the church to keep us grounded in what is good, right, true, loving, peaceful, and just. The church invites us to know our highest good. The church encourages us to be aware of a far larger reality than immediate petty aims and interests. The church calls forth our best selves.

The church also celebrates our precious, mysterious humanity, This involves the awareness that, at times, we fall short, we err, we sin. The church helps us to see our sins and our transgressions for ourselves. The gospel gives us the gift of forgiveness, for ourselves and others. It reminds us have an understanding spirit toward other humans who also inevitably err and are not their best selves at all moments. In the New Testament, the concepts of forgiveness, healing, and salvation are intimated related. So, when we acknowledge, “I am aware of my faults, and have my sin constantly in mind,” [Psalm 51:3, The Inclusive Bible: The First Egalitarian Translation], we are on the way to forgiveness, healing, restoration, and wholeness.

The Lenten season is a time to reflect on our faults and sins. It is a time to free ourselves from the accumulated burden of sin, error, and bad judgement. Lent is a time to embrace the healing power of forgiveness and mercy, for ourselves, others, and the world.

Prayer
We give thanks for the gospel of Jesus Christ, and for the church which keeps the gospel alive. We are grateful for the healing power of forgiveness which is a core teaching of our faith. We are grateful that the church encourages us to learn from our past sins and errors and to find new life through forgiveness. Lent is a time to embrace the freeing love and mercy of God. Amen.